"This book is about faith in God.
For more than twenty centuries, Christianity has given us dazzling works of theology, yet it remains a religion in which the heart is absolutely essential to faith.
The appeal of Jesus Christ was first and foremost to the heart.
So here is the story of one path to God.
The story has a happy ending because I have found the Transcendent God both intellectually and emotionally. And complete belief in Him and devotion to Him, no matter how interwoven with occasional fear and constant personal failure and imperfection, has become the true story of my life.
Before I can describe how I returned to faith, at the age of fifty-seven, I want to describe how I learned about God as a child.
What strikes me now as most important about this experience is that it preceded reading books. Christians are People of the Book, and our religion is often described as a Religion of the Book. And for two thousand years, all that we believe has been handed down in texts.
It’s important to stress here that my earliest experiences involved beauty; my strongest memories are of beautiful things I saw, things which evoked such profound feeling in me that I often felt pain.
In fact I remember my early childhood as full of beauty, and no ugly moment from that time has any reality for me. The beauty is the song of those days.
I vividly remember knowing about God, that He loved us, made us, took care of us, that we belonged to Him; and I remember loving Jesus as God; and praying to Him and to His Blessed Mother, the Virgin Mary, when I was very small."
Rice’s Faith Begins to Crack
She saw ‘good people’ with no faith.
She had a desire for modern world.
She had a conversation with priest- “He just said, ‘You are catholic- there is no life outside catholic church’.
Her heart wanted to explore.
She quit the church for 38 years.
Never prayed to God about it.
Stopped talking to God.
Began to see God as voice of authority over infinite compassion.
God could not have made a church so fragile- vulnerable to information- 'churches told you lies.'
Rice writes ‘Interview with the Vampire’- ‘an obvious lament for my lost faith’
Atheism Begins to Crack
She began to study history- the more she studied history- ‘the more my atheism became shaky’- particularly the survival of the Jews-
She goes back to New Orleans and finds the Catholics warm and receiving
Struggle was waging- atheism held firm
Took trips to Europe and Holy Land- The Statue of Jesus at Rio de Janeiro- a spiritual experience-
She began to see His presence and also began to see that the Lord was pursuing her- EWTN-
Atheism was cracking…”I was losing faith in nothingness”
She saw people committed to ‘good’- ‘NO ONE WAS INDIFFERENT to conscious or to acute moral responsibility’.
Creation was speaking to me- the music of a violin sang to me of God-
Jesus weighed on her.. ‘He started a worldwide religion’ Why was America obsessed with Jesus- he was on their lips- Why was His name the most common curse word I heard?
FINALLY she gave in to something deep… I loved God..I love Him in Jesus… I wanted to go back
“In the moment of surrender, I let go of all the theological or social questions which had kept me from Him for countless years. I simply let them go. There was the sense, profound and wordless, that if He knew everything I did not have to know everything, and that, in seeking to know everything, I’d been, all of my life, missing the entire point.”
“And it was His knowing that overwhelmed me….His was the Divine Mind that made snowflakes, candle flames, birds soaring upwards…
He knew the answer to every conceivable question before it was formulated…
And why should I remain apart from Him just because I couldn’t grasp all of this? He could grasp it. Of course!”
Decides to write only for God- Her husband dies of a brain tumor
From 2002- 2005 devoured New Testament scholarship
“It isn’t simply finding skeptical New Testament scholarship so poor, so shallow, so irresponsibly speculative, or so biased. That has indeed been the case.“ But it was the Incarnation- Jesus becoming flesh- “You became a child for me”
“Not only do I find no evidence for isolated Gospel communities, but I see no collaborative writing in the gospels at all.”
The interplay of simplicity and complexity seems to go beyond human control.
She finds many Christians full of love and division is hurting the church.
“I became convinced that my urban atheist friends were to a great extent out of touch with Christian America”
Last line :
I am broken, flawed, committed: A Christmas Christian searching for that stigmata, for the imprint of those Wounds on my heart and my soul, and my daily life”
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